hmmm i tink i am person which is damn easy to be influence..u can juz filled me with something positive and i ended up telling u what's the negative part..all negative thoughts always come to my mind first..yeah i do wan to think of good things but i juzz can't..i rather be prepared with the worst situation that might happened then giving myself fasle hope..haha..well it is better to be well prepared..if u have more hope..u might end up having dissappointment..if onli my heart was made of stone..maybe it would be better..so i wun have any feelings..no sadness..no worries..no burden..no problems..no more feelings...haha..wat a good solution..haha..well is not abt running away or avoiding from tat problem but is not to have problems anymore..ok tink i have been staying at home so all my stupid thoughts juz flashed into my mind..haha..i am FINE de..woolala..tis few days didn't able to get a good sleep cos sis was working..though we do quarrel but then i miss her so much when she was working...cos it was night shift which means she onli get home in the morning..i was so worried and felt so sad for her la..everytime when she went to work..den i was like slacking at home..watching tv..in air conditioned room and lying in my comfortable bed den i started thinking how much she had to suffer and how tired she was at that time..haha..all this happened cos human has too many feelings le!!!

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